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No Brass Band

It’s funny, you work for months, you obsess, you worry, you write and rewrite, you check and you recheck; then, finally, the appointed hour rolls round, the line is drawn, the countdown reaches zero, and it’s blast-off time.

There should be cheering crowds, there should be brass bands, there should be fireworks, maybe even ticker tape.

But if you’re an indie author you don’t get any of those things, well, not in my experience anyway.

This is the third time I’ve launched a book and, just as before, it’s been anti-climatic.

Truman Capote once said:

Finishing a book is like you took a child out in the backyard and shot it.

A tad dramatic I’d say, but I know what he meant. OK, I admit to feeling a little buzz when I bring up the new Amazon page for the first time, and that buzz has been higher on this occasion because I’m feeling less like a fraud. With three published books out there my repeated flimsy claims to being a professional author now have some foundation at least.

Maybe having a physical copy of ‘A Foolish Escape’ in my hand on the day might have helped, but it didn’t happen. Amazon’s system for ordering author copies is not what it should be. Hopefully, I’ll get them this week. 

Gail marked the launch with the gift of a beautiful T-shirt bearing the image of an ocean wave in Nazaré, Portugal. It’s in the book, one of the many places we enjoyed together. Happy memories are things we all need right now eh? That was the highlight of the day.

I had nothing planned for launch day, a good thing as it turned out. A puncture on Gail’s car and an electrical problem at home sucked up the hours. Truth be told I forgot all about the book.

One thing that did/should have happened was an email going out to all of you fine folks that pre-ordered and registered for the AFE Bonuses.

I know some of you received it as I’ve had replies and thanks. But I also know that email software can be glitchy and spam filters too eager, so if you registered and haven’t seen the email yet, let me know; I’ll get you fixed up.

So, that’s that. AFE is done, The Foolish Trilogy is finished. THE END.

Except it isn’t.

It’s time for a new writing challenge. 

I said just now that my claims to be a professional author appear less dishonest now, but I still feel like a fraud.

Does just writing down my experiences make me a ‘real’ author? I already know the story I’m going to tell before I start. The characters, the plot and the scenes already exist in my memory. I’m not creating anything.

I don’t know if I can.

But I want to find out.

So, here’s some news.


Oh, and this will make you laugh…… I’m going to write it during November – 30 days — 50,000 words — Zero to completed 1st draft.

And that’s not all; I have no clue what it’s going to be about yet.

Maybe I haven’t done with being foolish just yet.

Perhaps I can restore some faith in my sanity by explaining that I’m not going to do this alone, I’m going to participate in NaNoWriMo.

If your reaction to that is WTF is Nanowhatmo? Let me explain.

National Novel Writing Month began in the U.S. in 1999 as a small internet project among a group of friends. The challenge was simple — write 50,000 words of a novel in thirty days.

The idea caught on. Today NaNoWriMo is a global non-profit organisation supporting writing fluency and education. Each November 1st hundreds of thousands of people around the world sign up and begin to write. This year I’ll be one of them.

I’ll be blogging about the whole experience in my usual warts and all style. I hope you’ll follow along, or better still why not join me? 

NaNoWriMo is free to all and with everything that’s happened to us this year there’s probably never been a better time to become a novelist!

Catch you later.

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